Riding on Joy

 Les Schwab is a wonderful place to go. No, I'm not being sarcastic. They have coffee, popcorn, and service with a smile. It's easy to be looked up, by your phone number and Les Schwab is very helpful. If you buy their tires, it comes with a guarantee of free flat tire repair. That's where I am now. Getting a flat repaired. To be fair, my tires might just be low on air, but I'm getting them checked out to be safe. I just came from the clinic. It's also good to get your health checked out, just to be safe. My health is doing great! Just a small med change. By the time I'm done at Les Schwab, I should be able to go to the pharmacy for the new prescription. Health insurance is great, to a degree. It's nice when you are poor enough to get state insurance. If you are struggling financially, you might qualify for free or discounted health insurance. Check with your local state government website. I'm listening to Christian music on low at Les Schwab. It's ...

  Brian Hardin: Daily Audio Bible A little long. A little hard to sit through, but it's worth the wait.

  Praise and worship playlist

Hosanna in the Highest - Hillsong Worship

  (Not my comic)

            Danny Gokey - Tell Your Heart To Beat Again (Live) (I do not own this video)

  Kari Jobe - I Am Not Alone (Live) (I do not own this video) Enjoy!

    Spirit Lead Me (Official Video) -  Influence Music & Michael Ketterer Lyrics (I do not own these videos) HAPPY SUNDAY! ENJOY THE  LORD'S PRESENCE THOUGH  MUSIC.

  [Verse 1] The scattered words and empty thoughts Seem to pour from my heart I've never felt so torn before Seems I don't know where to start [Pre-Chorus] But it's now that I feel Your grace fall like rain From every fingertip, washing away my pain [Chorus] 'Cause I still believe in Your faithfulness 'Cause I still believe in Your truth 'Cause I still believe in Your holy word And even when I don't see, I still believe [Verse 2] Though the questions still fog up my mind With promises I still seem to bear Well, even when answers slowly unwind It's my heart I see You prepare [Pre-Chorus] But it's now that I feel Your grace fall like rain From every fingertip, washing away my pain Credit: www.Genius.com I do not own rights to this song. I still believe - Jeremy Camp (I do not own this video)

 I need to address one of the wild delusions I had while I was off my meds. I thought I was Jesus. Then I thought I was Holy Ghost. THEN I thought I was their child. Here is the obvious truth: I'm not God, not even A god. Obvious, I know. Some of you saw the videos I made when I was delusional.  If you haven't, please DON'T. It's embarrassing.  In the end, I have the Holy Ghost within me, but I'm not Him. Every Christian has the Holy Ghost within them. It happens when you accept Jesus as Lord and Savior. God is Three Persons in One: God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost.  So, Jesus is "God with us". The Holy Ghost is "God within us". The Father is "God around us". And me? I'm plain old Lydia, who KNOWS Him.  Slowly but surely, God gently brought me out of my delusions and placed me in reality.  This is a reality: As a Christian, I am a daughter of the King. We all know this. I am a child of God. Adopted though the bloo...

  Divorce, whose fault is it?      I'd say the one who initiates the divorce is at fault, unless the other partner was unfaithful.       I left Bran, but Bran committed adultery in his heart first. He was attracted to another woman and was leaving ME. "You can't fire me, I quit!"      Initially, I tried to share him with the other woman. But in the end, because it's illegal to be sister wives, I surrendered Bran to the other woman. The other woman, Sho, would have backed off. But Bran no longer wanted to be with me. It was a lost cause.          I was, "Too much" for him.  Here is why I was too much:      I am Bipolar and ADHD. I was heavily medicated, and Bran got me off those meds, therefore inducing wild delusions.      So really, me being "Too much" was HIS fault.  He was actually FEEDING the delusions in the beginning because the adventure was fun!  ...

       Morgan Wallen is an amazing country singer. Though, I did not know this until I was scammed by a man pretending to be him and started listening to his music because of my acquaintance with this "Fake Morgan".       Fake Morgan was nice and constantly sent hearts. He was not kind. Kindness comes from the heart, and while Fake Morgan was trying to win my heart through friendship (new scam) he wasn't actually interested in getting to know me. Fake Morgan probably didn't read half of my messages, though to be fair, I sent a lot. I SPAMMED a Scammer! Looking back, it's funny and it taught me a unique lesson: If you are a talker or texter, in this case, Don't spam people!      In the beginning, Fake Morgan was friendly, but the more I spammed him (which scammer love you to do because it creates a false sense of intimacy) the more tired of me he became. The more "Long Suffering" he was. And not in the Biblical sense. He was sufferin...

       The past will never be forgotten, but God has forgiven me, and I hope my exes have too.       I forgive them for their part and have asked to be forgiven for my part.       Multiple times. I have lots of guilt for what I've done.       But now I am moving forward, making friends and cutting pathways with God's help.       God has told me to take a break from romance.  To "chill" and "Cool my jets".  And I will listen. I will obey.  You Know Better - Mercy Me                                                                                     (I do not own this video) Yours truly, Lydia Joy

     Fourth Base.  Well, all you need to know is that it happened. It was magical. That's why I eloped with Bran.  That's why we got married in Las Vegas. Morgan Wallen - Superman (Lyrics) (I do not own this video) Yours truly, Lydia Joy

       The third "date" or day, I spent the afternoon at his place.       I brought him flowers. I taught him to knit.     Then day four came... and we made it to fourth base.      I cooked him rice balls with authentic Japanese rice, or Sushi rice. I had no idea what I was doing! I burnt the first batch. I was really stressed out, but Bran told me to take my time, over chat. We were sending voice clips at that point.       Text itself got Bran in trouble.       Bran had texted me the day before (Day three?): Are you Trouble or should I be Concerned?      I called him IMMEDIATELY and told him: NO! I'm not trouble!      That was our first phone call. He had been trying to flirt. Tucker Wetmore - Wind Up Missin' You (Official Music Video) (I do not own this video) Yours truly, Lydia Joy

       The four days I spent with Bran are a bit of a blur. They blend together. I think our next date was in the Rain Forest.      No, it wasn't THE rain forest, but it was raining that day, in the hidden forest of Shelton.       Right in town, there are trails, next to the clinic.       We walked from his place to the Shelton Trails. We were in the forest for three hours, smooching every ten feet. Well, probably thirty to fifty feet, in the beginning. By the end of our date, our kissing had become constant.       Then I went to my evening shift at the Dollar Tree.      After that beautiful afternoon in nature with a cute guy, I felt fake at work.      My smile felt fake. I always thought it was genuine at work. I thought I enjoyed my job.      Not that day; I was SORE after that hike through the forest trails!      I could barely mo...

       I should have left that date sooner!      It would have saved me so much grief.     The details really aren't important for that first date. We connected and he paid for the meal, like a gentleman. I resisted Bran's wiles for four days. His manipulations made it seem like I was in control. Bran was a twisted man. The past two months have been a very strange experience.    What happened after the meal, you ask?     I think I went back to his place after Denny's, and we kissed. Under lamplight, because I didn't want to go into his place. I knew where that would lead! I left the parking lot around 2 AM. Maybe 3 AM. The family was asleep. And I had an instant Boyfriend. Tenth Avenue North - Worn (with lyrics) (I do not own this video) Yours truly, Lydia Joy

    My  first date with Bran was at Denny's at 11:45 PM, give or take 30 minutes. He was dragging his feet and therefore was running late. We were supposed to meet at 11 pm, after I finished closing the store.      I had met him earlier that day, for the second time in my life. Rewind five months, Bran introduced himself to me at my Register.       I'm a cashier. I've been in Retail since 2021, working various jobs because of my ADHD.       Back to the point, he shared his life story and left. That was when I had just started my new job at Dollar Tree in January. I didn't see him again until the middle of May.       I had literally prayed for a date, and God answered. I was ready to "replace" my ex-husband of five years. I just could not get over my ex-husband. Nothing worked! We were married for five years and now we are going on five and a half years of divorce. It's been over ten years since I h...

          The past two months have been like a Joy Ride. Not that I've ever been on one. Lol. I'm a good girl. Right, you say. Well, I used to be. Not anymore. Now, I'm a Joy Girl. This is a relatable story about how you can be a Joy Girl too.      I was doped up on prescribed medications for years. I didn't know how bad it was because I felt so numb inside.       My life was boring when I was "stable". In recent years, while I was "stable" from my chemical imbalance, labeled "bipolar I and II", I would make my bed and light a candle on my days off. I had little interest in doing anything. The highlight of my day off was doing laundry, because that made me feel good about myself. My favorite thing to do was go to the mall, where I'd use my free item Bath and Body Works coupons. That was my life.       Before I was medicated, I'd self-medicate on physical intimacy. That was slavery. I was chained to phys...