The past two months have been like a Joy Ride. Not that I've ever been on one. Lol. I'm a good girl. Right, you say. Well, I used to be. Not anymore. Now, I'm a Joy Girl. This is a relatable story about how you can be a Joy Girl too. I was doped up on prescribed medications for years. I didn't know how bad it was because I felt so numb inside. My life was boring when I was "stable". In recent years, while I was "stable" from my chemical imbalance, labeled "bipolar I and II", I would make my bed and light a candle on my days off. I had little interest in doing anything. The highlight of my day off was doing laundry, because that made me feel good about myself. My favorite thing to do was go to the mall, where I'd use my free item Bath and Body Works coupons. That was my life. Before I was medicated, I'd self-medicate on physical intimacy. That was slavery. I was chained to phys...
My first date with Bran was at Denny's at 11:45 PM, give or take 30 minutes. He was dragging his feet and therefore was running late. We were supposed to meet at 11 pm, after I finished closing the store. I had met him earlier that day, for the second time in my life. Rewind five months, Bran introduced himself to me at my Register. I'm a cashier. I've been in Retail since 2021, working various jobs because of my ADHD. Back to the point, he shared his life story and left. That was when I had just started my new job at Dollar Tree in January. I didn't see him again until the middle of May. I had literally prayed for a date, and God answered. I was ready to "replace" my ex-husband of five years. I just could not get over my ex-husband. Nothing worked! We were married for five years and now we are going on five and a half years of divorce. It's been over ten years since I h...
The past will never be forgotten, but God has forgiven me, and I hope my exes have too. I forgive them for their part and have asked to be forgiven for my part. Multiple times. I have lots of guilt for what I've done. But now I am moving forward, making friends and cutting pathways with God's help. God has told me to take a break from romance. To "chill" and "Cool my jets". And I will listen. I will obey. You Know Better - Mercy Me (I do not own this video) Yours truly, Lydia Joy
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